juno is stronger than me. then again it maybe coz shes not real. i just read k.noris punya pengalaman lahirkan baby. nak nangis bace. pengalaman aku pulak nanti camane? last week i downloaded juno n watched it with my hubby. masa juno nak deliver the baby, dia rilek je. tp aku yg nangis. panik. terpaksa ditenangkan oleh hubby. seriously i cant bring myself to even think about it. or il just keep crying all day n all night. im taking it day-by-day now. hari, esok, dan lusa. tak pk pasal 206 hari lagi. i still have like 200 days for that. lets hope il get stronger by then. (T_T) i have loads of things to do, but u can still find me blogging at 3/7/2008 02:12:24

weekly wrap up its been a week since my last entry. lama betul. i didnt go anywhere. n im not that busy either. in fact, this is my 4th attempt to write a new entry. every attempt produced different results. the last one was the worst. i talked about politics! n dah post dah pon. tp 7 minit je terus delete. i cant imagine how many ppl would stop talking to me if i didnt delete it. kelaka la pulak. but i think il just keep my opinion about the current political situation to myself n my family only. coz i doubt that everybody else would agree with me. hehe. ok so, what happened since last entry? my adik went to college last saturday. so did 3 of my brothers in law. babai everybody. so both homes r quite senyap n sunyi these days. hehehe. n frankly i missed them all. boring la rumah senyap sunyi nih. tp my adik dah cakap nak balik weekend ni sbb ada game. hmm.. n tadi dah pun register kat grad school. terbang seribu lebih bayar yuran. itu baru basic fees. belum campo credit fees. tsk2. tp apapon tengkyu pada yg mengsponsor. my lovely mommy n hubby. n abah too. i lebiu all. il find my source of income soon, don worry. then i can start paying for the car again. hoho. malam ni pulak mama dah terbang ke madrid for a week. ada seminar of some sort. my sis memula nak ikut. tp haritu dah byk duit habis. plus skarang summer, tiket mahal. so tak ikut la. tp pesan byk gile kat mama. especially fresh herbs. kelaka tak? pegi europe pesan herbs. oregano, basil, bay leaves, rosemary. we didnt buy anything the time we went there sbb mmg travel style ikat perut. mama bole la splurge sket kot. kot laa... kdg2 mama ni lagi kedengkut dr kitorg, hiuhiu. takpe la tgk la apa hasilnya nanti. apa lagi? im in serdang now. balik melawat parents in law. besok? im thinking of going to klcc. tp kan, sebenarnya badan ni sgt la tak larat utk jalan2 kat shopping complex. tadi pas register, pegi warta. balik2 terus pengsan. baru kluar 2 jam. oh and, last saturday, we went to midvalley, ingatkan nak jalan2 survey baju mengandung etc. pon tak larat gak. stakat makan n masuk carrefour je. balik2 dah nak maghrib. tp tido gak smntara tunggu maghrib sbb tak tahan letih. camana nih. tp rasa nak gi gak klcc. sbb nak gi parkson beli small vacuum cleaner, nak makan teppanyaki yg sedap (tpt lain either takde logo halal @ taksedap), n nak beli mekap. dah nak masuk kelas kan. bole la pakai mekap lik. haha. nak beli... loose powder, eye shadow, eye liner, blusher, concealer, and lipstick! hihi byknye. hubby dah kata no tadi. tp nak gak. nak gakk!! tp tgk la klo bole bangun awal sok. haha. ok sape2 tak keje @ keje kat2 klcc, nak lunch date ngan aku sok, calling2 la.. hihihi... ohhhhh lastly, nak komen pasal minyak. dlu2 masa heboh harga minyak naik, aku tak join pun. sbb nye? aku tak terasa lagi penangan nye sbb dah lupe bile last skali isi minyak. dah la jarang drive. n setiap kali nak gune keta mesti minyak ada jer... lagipun aku kuar pun takde jauh2. stakat warta, pasar malam, etc. so tadi la 1st time isi minyak. myvi, full tank, 77 hengget!! menurut member yg keje perodua, sejak harga minyak naik, permintaan kat keta myvi n viva naik mendadak sbb orang nak tukar keta kecik utk jimat minyak. so i guess,  even tho myvi takleh pegi lagi laju dr 120km without bergegar, at least tak makan banyak minyak. ok ke tak ok? ok la. thats all. see ya. i have loads of things to do, but u can still find me blogging at 3/7/2008 01:46:19

yummay donats rasa mual bagaikan telur dihujung tanduk sejak dr lewat ptg smalam sehingga lah ke saat ni membuatkan keghairahan aku utk memblog sejak kemarin dah pun hilang. nasik mmg takleh masuk lgsg harini, dah muntah 2 kali sejak mlm tadi n skarang rasa cam makanan penuhh je kat anak tekak ni. hubby kata mungkin baby girl kot sbb mengada2 sangat. hehehehe. td petang pun merajuk dgn hubby bila dia refuse nak belikan something yg aku pinta. permintaan tu lebih pada ngada2 je sebenarnye tapi bila kene rejek terus jadi sungguh2.. muahahahahaa... the heart wants what it wants la bebeh, what else can i do... kemarin aku telah berjaya membuat medical checkup yg telah ditangguh sejak berminggu2 yg lalu. mama suh gi awal sbb takut ramai orang. tp tau je la aku ni.. patutnya adik aku ajak pegi awal gak tp dia sendiri pon bgn lambat gak sbb tgk euro pd malam sebelumnya. sudahnya kat tghari baru kami sampai ke pk. pastu nurse suh dtg balik kul 2.. hahaha.. apa lagi kami pun pegi la ke mines sbb aku konon2nya nak skinkan aku nye henpon. skali tgk2 kedai skin tu dah tarak... ponek den drive jauh2.. tp tengok2 masa tgh makan pas tu, henpon pun aku tak bawak! haha bijak ke ape. dibuatnye kedai skin tu ade, aku dah ye ye survey skin yg aku minat, skali korek2 henbeg, takde lak henpon! buat malu je. heheh. pas makan n beli brg2 sket dlm giant, kami pun patah balik ke pk. ok caj buat medical checkup mmg la sgt murah. utk aku yg takleh xray ni, cume rm35 saje. adikku yg buat complete medical check up cume rm67. tapi proses nye masyaAllah kelam kabut nak mampos. org kat kaunter pertanyaan suh amik nombor, bila dah amik nombor,org yg jaga kat tpt amik nombor suh bayar dlu kat kaunter byr. pas bayar amik lg skali nombor. org kat kaunter byr suh pegi kaunter 31 utk cek mata, org kat kaunter 31 suh gi depan dlu cek berat & tinggi. org kat depan tu tak cakap pun pas sudah cek berat n tinggi tu nak patut gi mana. kat tpt cek mata kelam kabut tak ikut urutan. kat laboratory cek urine kene tunggu kat 40minit. pastu jumpe doktor tak sampai 2 minit. tak cek pon telinga ke hape ke. kul 4 baru siap semuanya... balik ngadu kat mama, mama kata, "kata dah dpt iso.. iso hape macam tu?" no komen. tapi me n lil bro takde la hangin ke ape. just take our time saja.. im in a good mood waktu tu. mungkin sbb ada member. klo kene gi wat sorang2 mau hangin gak. at least ada my bro ni ada gak teman borak2.. dia tanya "dlu kak mas blajar cni ke? ni fakulti kakmas ke? kokak gile.." "dlu kakya dok kolej ni ke? dia dok cni?" "kenape nami tak mintak cni eh. boleh balik hari2.."  huhuhu kelakar rasanye bila dia tanya macam2.. at the same time buat aku teringat balik zaman diploma n degree dulu.. n bila jalan dr parking ke pk tu, rasa macam, nyamannya udara.. ini yg buat aku rindu dgn upm ni. dlu2 jalan dr fakulti ke kelas, dr kelas ke opis mama, ke library, ke flet sri serdang tu, macam2 lagi.. n terus buat aku excited utk masuk blajar balik.. n buat aku sedar, keje yg dok dlm opis 9-5 mmg sgt2 la tak sesuai utk diri ini.. i need to be out there.. dahtu apasal aku tak amik pertanian ke, perhutanan ke? bole dok hirup udara nyaman all the time! hihihi.. ntah la dah rezeki aku cenggini, aku nak kata apa lagi kan... yuran utk masuk blajar ni pun sedikit sebanyak merunsingkan fikiran.. mana nak cekau duit riban2 nak bayar yuran semester? belum pk duit minyak nak ulang alik ke upm lagi.. nak keja, mmm entah lah. kalau ikut hati aku takmau keja sampai la babyku ni lahir. mana larat siang nak keja, petang sampai malam nak attend kelas pulak. pastu nak kene study utk exam lagi. sv lama aku mmg ada offer utk jadi ra masa aku dtg utk mintak referee report dr dia.. waktu tu aku boleh terlepas cakap, "tapi kene dtg fakulti...".. langsung dia sengih n kata, "nak duk rumah pun boleh, tp mesti ada hasil lah.." kihkihkih sebenornye aku berbelah bagi je nak keje ke tak. last2 dia kata, takpa la kawin la dlu, nanti baru dtg balik.. dan kini.. bukannya dah kawin, dah nak besor pun perut ni, baru la nak gi jumpa dia balik.. adakah tawaran tu masih terbuka? hmmm.... ah apa2 pun, minggu depan aku akan pegi register kat upm. pastu gi la fakulti ke hape ke. tgk la camana. skang ni semuanya masih samar2 lagi. taktau brapa kali kelas seminggu etc. aku nak pegi fakulti skarang rasa macam malas la pulak. tunggu la register dlu. klo nak diikutkan, semua benda laa aku dok tangguh2. tangguh nak wat medical checkup, tangguh nak call fakulti, tangguh nak apply scholarship yg semuanya tarikh tutup isnin ni dan aku tak buat apa2 pon lagi. biar la malas nak pk. aku lebih risaukan perut yg tak tenteram ni lagi. duit nak bayor yuran... hmmm hubby ada, mama ada, abah ada, mak ada, ayah ada.. bole tak mintak semua orang sket? klo dah bahagi 5 takde la byk sangat kan. kahkahkahkahkah gelak guling2. teruknya lah aku ni. sejak bila suka meminta2 ni? sejak aku rasa malas nak apply scholarship, malas nak jadi ra, malas nak cari keja lain. semuanya malasss.... ish ish ish teruk nya. takde satu hari pun dlm hidup aku yg takde perkataan malas timbul dlm kepala. hari2 mesti ada rasa malas. tsk tsk tsk. sampaikan hubbyku kata, "cepat2 la awak masuk blajar, takde la perangai camni dah.." gila.. mmg aku ni dah dr tahap bad gone to worse dah ni. boring sgt sampai tadi aku habiskan satu petang utk masak donat! yes ppl, i made doughnuts! spend 3 jam kat dapur. sebenornye aku rindu dgn donat kat opis dlu. yg makan panas2 dgn teh tarik. wuuu sedap.so aku dgn semangat nye pegi la ke yummie bakery utk beli yeast, rolling pin, bread softener, susu tepung and donat cutter! hasil nya.. seriusly mmg superb.. rasa sebijik macam donat kat opis tu. tp nak wat lenkali kene pk 4-5 kali dlu la sanggup tak nak berdiri kat dapo tu sampai 3 jam. macam masak utk hari raya la plak. sampai kan masa goreng donat tu rasa mcm nak tumbang... hmmm.. ok habis dah citer. baby dah nak masuk 10 minggu tak lama lagi. kejap je dah suku tempoh mengandung yg aku lalui. mmg la kejap sbb masa found out pun dah 5 minggu dah baby bucuk ni. malam2 spt biase akan bangun at least 2 kali utk ke toilet. jeles betul tgk hubby tido nyenyak dr malam smpi ke pagi. dia kata dia dr kecik mmg seorang yg hyper active sbb tu bila tido tak sedar dunia. i was like, hyper active? padan la aku ni letih mcm nak pengsan hari2. baby bucuk dlm perut ni ikot ayah dia gaknye. pusing2 tak berenti.. hehehe macam tau2 je dia pusing. klo ngada2 salahkan mak dia, klo hyperactive salahkan ayah dia. mari kita tengok nanti baby ni ada sifat yg mana satu... hiuhiuhiu. tak kisah la baby, ngade2 ke, hyperactive ke, we will still love you with all our hearts.. ok la itu je utk kali ni. .. bye2. i have loads of things to do, but u can still find me blogging at 27/6/2008 00:48:13

sarah's tag i have quite a few things to blog about. but this tag is the easiest one to complete. so here goes. 1. Do you believe in love at first sight? definitely. i fell in love with my hubby at the first sight. 2. Have you ever felt stupid? Why? yup. by thinking that ppl could actually change. silly ppl would always remain silly. sampai tua. dah beranak pinak. tak caye tgk la nanti. 3. Where is the place that you want to go the most? hurm... nowhere at the moment. oh cameron highlands kot. 4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? ermm.. dream... takde.. if i look into the mirror of erised, id see myself just as i am. eh jap. mungkin, went into labour without much pain (this, as we all know, is impossible. so my dream would always remain a dream.) 5. If you can travel through time WITHOUT changing anything. Where would u go & why? masa kat infy. id love to sit at my desk n do my own work n chatting with ppl around me. i really miss that! 6. If the weather is too hot, where will u go to make urself cooler? my room. 7. If you win $1 million, what would you do? beli tanah kosong kat seblah umah ni n build my own house there. haha. but i think i need more than 1mil to do that. 8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? well, i did told a fren to "kemsalam" to the person i admired. and this person ended up marrying me!! kahkahkah... klo tak suh odi kemsalam i bet my hubby wouldnt even kno who i was... err does that count as a love confession? 9. Who are the top five people in the world you would wish to meet? ermmm.... my infoscion frenz. i havnt met them since my wedding day. itu pun tak dpt nak cakap dgn sume. kan best klo dpt dok borak2 cam dolu2.. jom wat gath. harap2 kali ni bole join. hihi. 10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? he must know how to make me stop crying. pandai tenangkan hati dikala aku gundah gulana, pandai buat kelaka, mesti comel spy baby2 nnt sume kiut2 belake, mesti tak kedekut mak kut, mesti slalu bawak aku gi jalan2, tak perlu turuti segala kemahuan aku tp cukup utk buat aku bersyukur ada dia. kikiki. my hubby ler tu. 11. Which type of cars I love the most? cars... ermm... any car yg bole speed 160km/h tanpa rasa macam melayang. supaye bole sampai terengganu / rumatok / mana2 cepat2! huahuahua... right now my hubbys car can do that. so im not asking for anything more. (the myvi cant tho. booo!) 12. Which do you prefer from your other half? hug? or a kiss? dedua nak tp berkadaran. klo salu sgt rasa rimas!! kahkahkah... 13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet? diam je dah la. im such a shallow person that i hate it when other ppl criticize me. im always right. it is either my way or the highway. in other words,go fly a kite! 14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? a good night sleep 15. Are you a shopaholic or not? used to be one. but dah lupe last skali gi klcc utk survey handbag. (eh baru je sabtu lepas.. kehkehkeh... tp dah lama tak splurgeeee!!) 16. What kind of electronic device/gadget you own that you like most? used to be my nintendo ds. tp skang saya nak psp! atau ps3! atau wii! oh does my pc count? ok. i like my pc the most. aint no other pc would do. 17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change? kurangkan rasa benci utk blajar masak. 18. What makes you feel disappointed? when someone that u look up to, tetiba tunjuk perangai yg tak boleh diterima otak. terus hilang respek! 19. If given a chance, do you want to see your future? no. nothing good can come from that. 20. Who would you tag? takde sape sbb yg suke buat tag sume dah kene tagged. :P   i have loads of things to do, but u can still find me blogging at 25/6/2008 17:25:13